C-Section

“It was one of those times you feel a sense of loss, even though you didn't have something in the first place. I guess that's what disappointment is- a sense of loss for something you never had.”
― Deb Caletti, The Nature of Jade  

And that about sums it up... I've never heard of The Nature of Jade but a friend had this as her status and I could relate.

I'm doing MUCH better now with 3 months since my son was forcibly removed from my body. I still have pain near the Csection site, even though I'm told it is "all healed." Emotionally and Physically I have some scars that will never go away.

I'm still a bit terrified of becoming pregnant again... I really want to wait the 2 years so I can VBAC and because I really don't want to have 2 in diapers. HA #selfish

I try to enjoy the little things every day, even if it is just a walk to the mailbox and back or the smile on my son's face when he sees me first thing every morning. Or the way he will scoot closer to me in bed if I move away. You know for a child that can't crawl he sure does get around!!

Giving me kisses (aka latching onto my face because he was hungry)

Listening to daddy play guitar...  He LOVES it!!

Even while sleeping he can't get go of his blue balls :) His favorite toys!!