Sunday, July 8, 2018

I will never...

I remember a conversation during arts and crafts class in High School where Kevin, Julie,and I discussed sex, marriage, and children. I was a firm No, Never, Nope, Not in this lifetime.
Pretty funny right?
Well once I did fall in love and get married, I said I would NEVER want to Foster kids. They were troubled and I couldn't handle them.
Now? My heart breaks for them. It isn't their choice to be torn from their families, and every child deserves a safe place to live. They deserve to know they are loved and that no matter what someone will always be in their corner.
We are not foster parents but my heart is calling out to those kids... We will see where it leads.

God keep turning my Nevers into miracles! More of you, less of me!

Thursday, June 14, 2018

Just Say Yes

A few months ago... possibly a long time ago actually... we had a speaker come to our church and talk about being intentional about reading our bibles. That if we were really engaged in our bible and in our faith, and in our walk and relationship with the Lord we would be ready to say "YES" before we even knew the question.
He shared a great story about the all too common line "well lets just pray about it first" and on the surface it sounds great, it sounds holy, it sounds like a great thing to do. It also sounds like Jonah. We need to be prayed up and squared up so when God calls we don't question, we don't faulter, we don't fear the call. Jonah knew clearly it was a call from God, but he ran away. Our "pray about it" answer is no better at times. We KNOW it was God's call, we KNOW it is from Him but we are scared. We are afraid. We run.
Today was intro to week 1 of the Voice of God study by Prescilla Evans Shirer and let me tell you friends, it was what I needed to hear! She mentioned again, that we need to be ready with a YES without knowing where it's going to go.
We have to stop with the excuses and the delays.
Starting today I'm praying that I can hear from God. That I will know his voice in the roar of the waves, the whisper of the wind, and the colors of the sunset. That I can hear from Him on the pages on my Bible, the lyrics to my worship, and the voice of my pastor.
No longer can I rely on myself to know where to go and what to do... no longer can I pretend to be in control.
I'm not.
I can NEVER control everything.
And that's better than okay.